Misc.

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1. This day is absolutely beautiful! Beautiful, beautiful....

2. I played "my" new cello yesterday. I felt extremely rusty as I have technically not really played much at all since the end of May. In June I went on a road trip, July I was packing and moving and then I sold my cello. A guy in my church who plays for the worship team let me play his cello after church one Sunday, and when I went to dinner at a friend's house two weeks ago, she let me play her cello, but that is the extent of how much I have played since August. My uncle and my cousins really enjoyed hearing me play yesterday. I enjoyed playing it even more! I am so relieved to have access to a cello. Good timing too- I need to start practicing for my Tucson best friend's wedding and my mind is so befuddled this week. Playing my cello has always helped me "re-center" myself, after praying of course. Praise God!!!

3. I am nervous about tomorrow night. Why is not knowing HOW things will change so scary for me lately, even with "little" things?

4. "Gone with the Wind" is a HORRIBLE story! Horrible! I can see why it is a famous classic movie for its major overall themes, historical context, great acting and visual array, but it is a terrible story. Many years ago, I saw the movie and I don't remember thinking much about it except that it was long, depressing and that I liked the dresses. (FYI-This is coming from someone who LOVES old movies and even sat through an amazing 2.5 hour SILENT movie) I watched "Gone with the Wind" two nights ago to refresh my memory about the story and I kind of wish I hadn't. If you want to see a story depicting how to do everything WRONG in relationships, then watch it. I was so struck by how much selfishness, pride, blindess to other people's needs, greed, double-mindedness/heartedness etc. completely destroys anything good about life. Relationships (God, friends, family, lovers) are our life-blood and when those are not pursued with good intent, then we will be miserable. Horrible story. I never want to see it again. Too disturbing.

5. Today I want to give up looking for jobs. It seems so pointless.

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Layne Julia said…
glad you got to play finally!!!
November 8, 2010 at 11:05 PM
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