Miserere
PSALM 51 Ekphrasis of Miserere (ie: description/reaction to this piece of music) Lent. Normally in the season before Easter which, in the church calendar, is a time of repentance, contemplation, and fasting, I implement some meaningful action or forgo a habit to replace it with more prayer or something equally pious. This year, because of a stressful job ending in chaos, Lent arrived before I had a chance to even think of anything to do to observe the season. I realized after a few days of frantically trying to come up with an idea, that I was not going to "do" anything this year. I'm spent. I'm beat. I'm tired of looking for jobs, talking about jobs, telling people about my interviews or lack thereof, fielding endless questions about what my plans are, tolerating even more suggestions as to what I should do next. I'm tired of dredging up the courage to face people, to put on a brave face, to keep hoping, and I'm scared of facing my disappointment...