The Uncomfortable In-Between
(Burnt tree bark, Mount Lemmon, Catalina Mountains- LCW -Tucson, AZ 2009) After a wedding in 2014, my cousin blurted out, "Laelia, you worry so much! I don't even believe in God and most things just eventually work out..." That comment was the impetus for a lot of soul searching. I knew it was true that I worried too much. I had only recently been facing how deep and long that Fear had been in my heart. And if I was supposed to have a God who I can trust, then why DID I worry so much? As a Christian since I was seven, God was supposed to be my antidote to that fear. Even as a teenager, I memorized verses like, "Do not fear, for I am with you!" and I could identify with the disciples when they were terrified on the stormy seas even though Jesus was on the boat . Honestly, the world can be a scary place. Even if God is real, horrible things have happened, which Christians often attempt to rationalize with weak platitudes in order to hide pain and drown q...